Tippy Toes Rose

Please excuse me if in this post I call Tilly a mixture of he and she! She may also get called Finn. Poor love! It is just that she reminds me so much of Finnkus when he was a bubba, both in looks and in behaviour. It really is a case of déjà vu. Quite spooky!
I am loving being a mum to a newborn again. Already time is going so quickly. I am soooooo bad at being honest when people ask how old she is. Was just the same with Finn. She will be 3 weeks tomorrow but if anyone asks, she is 2 weeks. Finn was 6 months I think until he was 8 months! And now if anyone asks he has only just had his second birthday…..despite it being a month ago. Mad as when I am pregnant I round it up to the next month….I can be 21 weeks, but if anyone asks…….almost 6 months I’ll reply! Sure there’s some Freudian reason as to why I do this and I bet I am not the only one……at least I hope not!!!

One of the biggest surprises is how it doesn’t feel any different to have a daughter as it did when I had a son. I haven’t ever been one of this people who craved a girl, I really didn’t mind what we had. I would have been so happy if Tilly had been a boy. The idea of Finn having a brother makes me go all gooey! And of course I love the idea of him having a sister too! But I was surprised by how normal it feels to have a girl……hmmmmm, that really makes no sense does it?!! Although changing a girl’s nappy is mad…..all those creases to clean!!!

It also feels very normal in having her here……like she is where she belongs. When I was in the hospital, Finn and Justin came to visit, I was feeding Tilly, Finn was playing on the floor and I said to J, “This just feels so right,”

The one difference between the two of them is that Tilly loves to suck! She has already found her hand and chews that lots. She also seems to always want a nipple in her mouth…..have been letting her have it as well, cos it is soooooo hot here at the moment that I do worry about her dehydrating. So easily done. So she is constantly having a quick drink. But by the end of the day my milk supply is pretty pants, so during the day I express a bottle that she has after her bath, so I know she has had a good feed. This means she can sleep for about 5 hours straight, before waking in the night….fab! Then it is a case of whatever will be will be for the rest of the night! Could be every hour or every 3. She did take to waking at 430am to start the day. Regular as clockwork, 430am comes, she wakes. Last couple of nights she has gone back to sleep though so fingers crossed. But it is such early days it can all change!!! And she is doing OK, could be soooo much worse!!! I look back on Finn’s newborn phase with rose tinted glasses as I know he wasn’t sleeping any better than Tilly is, yet to hear me speak about it, you’d think he was doing 14 hours straight off and making me a cooked breakfast too!!

The days are pretty much a free for all as regards her sleeping and feeding. I have tried to stick to Finn’s routine of music class, playdates and still having his little mates round as I don’t want him to feel like things have changed now his sister is here. So poor Tills is dragged round the houses literally! Oh don’t you just love guilt!!! I feel guilty that she doesn’t have any pals her age!!!! Her life revolves around Finn’s!!!!




Tilly at the beach working on her tan.......had to laugh at Phil's jaundice comment!! The lucky madam was born with lovely skin.....she is going to go a gorgeous colour in the sun!!!



What a surprise.......Finn kissing Tippy Toes........! He is addicted to his sister. Sleep time i have to make sure her door is firmly closed or he is in there kissing and tickling her. Not good!